I am usually very good about having a positive outlook on things. I am always the glass is half full, not empty, kind of person. Well not at the moment. Yes, I know there are way worse things that could be happening in my life and I really do have a lot of good things going on. But to be blunt, I am really pissed I won’t be running Boston. I worked really hard for it…TWICE! And once again I will not be running. I think it is hitting me the hardest right now because I am honestly not sure how my calf injury is recovering. I have not run for over 3 weeks because I am hoping rest is the cure. I could be doing all kinds of PT treatments but honestly I can’t afford it and I am tired of the pressure from more people to get better. But I can still “feel” something is wrong in my calf. I feel like this year is going to end up being a bust and Wisconsin isn’t going to go well.
I gave myself the goal of qualifying for Kona by 45 but I am starting to doubt I can make that happen.